The 5th Year of Ph.D!

Tuesday one-on-one with the research advisor:

Boss: "So Maya, tell me..."

Me: "Over the past week I've been trying to... (experimental blah blah)"

Boss: "So you mean to say that this experiment you were doing did not work."

Me "Yes, Sir."

Boss: "And the one you did last week, that was a negative result too?"

Me: "Yes, Sir."

Boss: "And nothing with the RNaseH assay?"

Me: "Yes, Sir."

Boss: "So basically, nothing is happening."

Me: "Yes, Sir."

Boss: "You don't really care about what I say, do you?"

Me: "Yes, Sir."

:O !!! Didn't even realize I had said a 'Yes' to that until the damage had been done!!! :O

Thankfully, Boss was in a good mood today and let me off without the usual dressing down... 5th year effect rubbing off on him too I guess :D

The Knots Prayer

Truly beautiful!

Dear God,

Please untie the knots

that are in my mind,

my heart and my life.

Remove the have nots,

the can nots and the do nots

that I have in my mind.

Erase the will nots,

may nots,

might nots that may find

a home in my heart.

Release me from the could nots,

would nots and

should nots that obstruct my life.

And most of all,

Dear God,

I ask that you remove from my mind,

my heart and my life, all of the 'am nots'

that I have allowed to hold me back,

especially the thought

that I am not good enough.

Amen

Realization... and a promise to keep

Why do I seem to relate to these quotes all of a sudden?

"Take extra care of 3 things in life:-
1. Trust

2. Promise

3. Relations

Because they don't make a sound when they break"

I can be very stubborn and rigid at times, alright, most of the times. Mom keeps telling me that. But Mother's words are taken for granted. Realization struck when a friend said that to me, and it pierced through my ego like the proverbial dagger through the heart. A lot of introspection later, I realize I need to change. My stubbornness, arrogance and rigidity have already done a lot of damage, hurt a lot of feelings. I really don't want that to happen any more. I promise to change, a promise I will keep right from this very moment.